shitty hellhole

was supposed to do a full shift, hell lot of markdowns and L not coming.
but ytd drained me completely.
cos C said we wnt close until we exceed target.
geez, thanks ALOT.
was forcing myself out of bed.
felt like i barely lay my head down and i have to get up already.

open w syima, for her its full shift and am tmr.
yes, what a jolly well-planned schedule!
syima was alr tired and i felt im in better shape than she is, told her to nap abit while i do the whatevers.
that energy didnt last.
and some woman had to provoke me. i was sucking in air and doing th whole breathing technique but failed.
once she got to the point abt me having no brains blahblah i just fired back.
then i stopped. its wrong of me to dish back at her right? anw, let her complain. i can do with some of that right now eh(:

was drained even before my delayed break.
nat came and accompanied me for break.
thank god, someone to lift my spirits abit.
we both have like some phobia crossing th road but break's great.
drag my feet back, i really cldnt push myself for a full shift.
i dont even want dinner in fact. i didnt even get a proper meal the whole day.
left feeling guilty now, for all the things i sacrificed for work. my friends, my sch work, my family, myself.
and now im more than shitty for leaving early when they are understaff.
and i miss out on timbre for shin sin's bday.
and all the things i have to drop cos of some last minute 'oh hey, u have to work for __ day'

this seems like an essay-ful now but i feel like i cn do a book.
see, i can be angry and mean and blabber.
this is the side u havent seen right?
well, its unleashed now and i bet u will see more and more cos they days are only getting rougher.

PS: u may not want to read this