merry xmas!!:D

for this christmas, its unlike any other.

reached singapore on th eve and today its work till end of mth,w sunday off. honestly, my body was giving all th signals why i shldnt go for work but i did. im proud of myself:x

funeral was today and im not close to her. but its a lie to say i dont feel affected. i mean, brain tumour..and a life is taken away. like that. so unfair.

missed/ will miss chalet and a few parties and somehow it feels like missing on alot. these have been what i was anticipating.

I is back to haunt me. i feel disturb and irritated and tired. using unknown numbers all th time and private number to call. and a couple of time i see the bikes that pass, i cnt be sure but i suspect its him. tinted visor so cnt cfm tho.

hahas. i think my xmas is pathetic and yes i admit im envious of those who cn eat baked turkey and open presents and just spending time w those u love and treasure. but, im happy im thought abt by those simple wishes and small gifts and lovely handmade cards. im happy my family fetched me frm the airport. happy selina baked me a scone. happy my gift for mummy and daddy touched them deeply. happy my friends are understanding. happy my workmates danced and acted so silly they made me feel just being there was worth it. and im happy i didnt pity myself and cn feel motivated.
i miss reallyhaving someone to confide to. lately, i feel very bottled up.
taipei trip has temporarily free me from all these n blogging has helped alot tho its abit restrictive.
still, its christmas and its awesome!(((((((((((((((((((((((: